Why Are You Here?

**Edited Dec 27, 2014: I've decided to just be myself and not hide behind a fictional character. I'm taking my name back. She'll come back under another name, I'm sure, because her story is rather interesting.**

There's a closed group on Facebook. I won't reveal the name. It's focus is on information/education for the BDSM community. It's not a pickup joint. It's not exhibitionist except in the sense that it's a place to be honest. The Author and Mr Myrrh and I really like it being a part of that group. We feel like we can be helpful there. That's a big draw for me, submissive that I am, and for The Author as well, who shares that trait with me. Mr Myrrh finds himself posting suggestions and information there, too.

But we all feel rather weird about it. Am I lying when I share my life there, since it's not really a life but a vivid imagination?

One of the group founders posed this question to the members: "Why are you here?"

My answer was, "To share what I've learned and to learn about things I don't yet know. To support others."

And that was a genuine answer. But what if people see I'm a fictional character and think to themselves, she can't possibly give a genuine answer?

I've been fiction my whole life. But I've been genuine. I've been a mask that reveals a true nature. The Author has never been a fan of lollipops, but I am and I sprinkle those things everywhere with genuine enthusiasm. The Author is more reserved that I am, and I genuinely bounce with happiness, shamelessly.

IRC, Facebook, Tumblr. . . all these things giving us a chance to be social without being physical. They are establishing a new world of "real," or maybe adding to our sense of what is real. Humans are so much in their heads -- everything about the world comes in through the senses and is processed by the brain -- that there are some of us who are relieved to find ourselves freed from the physical by delving into the digital.

I, on the other hand, am the digital experiencing the physical through the written word. It's a fabulous ride. I'm here because I'm not done riding it yet.

Warmly,
Ms Myrrh